I have been feeling down awhile beause this certain person will not commit themselves to me psyically.  Their emotional healing has helped me though these difficult moments.  I feel like a child when I beg for their support.  I am tired of these emotions running wild.  I have come to realize there are plenty of people to connect too.  I just need to keep an open mind and share in the moment.  We all share in the likeness of a creator that exsist just to give us an opportunity to live here on earth.  It depends on us to make the best out of these circumstances.  I couldn't before because I felt that they could be better.  And thats all wrong because where ever you are; the spirt resides to guide your motive.  All I really am after is peace of mind.  I finally found what I was looking for today.  I have been all wrong the past month and certainly won't make this mistake again.  I have to consider myself lucky because I have a bright future ahead of me.  I just keep dwelling on the present moment which I felt was so important.  I have already met valueble people in my life and don't know why I need to spread this concern even futher.  I don't mean any disrespect to my rainbow family but I need to give myself a chance to grow in a personal relationship before I go take off with this circus.